what I love

I'm laying in bed trying to sleep because I have the worlds worst sore throat (somebody please call the Guinness world records book) and I can't sleep. Go figure! I finally have the house quiet no where to be, no one to drive here or there, all because my family has been taking such good care of me. The laundry is done. The dishes are done. The kids are taken care of. It's all good!
But I can't sleep.
My head is spinning, but not like the usual stressed out can't shut off my brain because I have so much to do and I don't know when or how I will get to it all. It's because I miss them, and my mind is full of all the sweet and hilarious moments and the things I love about my family and life. So I thought I would share it with you, purge it ,and then maybe get some sleep.

I love when my husband takes me to the doctor and casually says to me as we are walking out the door "You know.. I was watching you while you were talking to the doctor and you're even beautiful when you are sick"
I love that Paul still carries Arden to bed after she has fallen asleep next to me in our bed. The way her long legs and arms flop over him and she settles her head on to his shoulder like she's still 3.
I Love to listen to Paul and Logan talk basketball on the couch. They remember every name and score and converse like equals and I can get a glimpse of the friendship they will have even after Logan is grown.
I Love the way Arden still dresses up in funky character costumes she creates, or sings and dances around the house.
I LOVE that both our kids are silly and goofy and aren't afraid to show some personality.
I love that they both still kiss us on the lips.
I love it when Arden sings in the bathtub and Logan plays his guitar in his room and they don't think anyone is listening. But it fills the house with music.
I love the countless "I love mommy notes" I get from Arden.
I love when Logan says he's glad his mom is young and cool and not old like all the other moms .
These are the things I love . These are the moments. I'm sure you all have moments like these too. Hope you are paying attention to them. I'm trying my best to. :)

Hope you enjoy the video... sorry about the mooning... She is Paul's daughter.

let's see if this works! This video is actually from October.

Logan....My Logan....

I've been wanting to write about my sweet boy for so long. It's hard to put into words all that he is and all that I feel for him. It's easy to write about Arden. She is constantly saying the funniest things and doing the sweetest things that I want to share them all. Logan on the other hand is slowly growing away from me and really from the whole family. He has a hard time with Arden (typical annoying little sister things) He is really starting to challange the alpha male (that would be Paul) And he and I really don't get a whole lot of time together any more.

He is however, and always be my sweet boy. My true love. My baby. To see him now with his peach fuzz and to hear his voice start to lower is really cool. You always know that one day your kids will be taller than you but when it actually happens it is the most bizarre experiences.

So when does it change for me? When do I stop wanting to grab him and hold him on my lap and kiss all over him like I did when he was little? I mean I don't see other mothers with grown sons doing that. It's like the book LOVE YOU FOREVER where the mother sneaks in her sons window, after he is grown and out on his own, and rocks him back and forth saying" I'll like you forever, I'll love you for always, as long as I live my baby you'll be". Okay, like that is so gonna be me!

I will say that as of yet he actually still likes me. (Sally Field) Yes he does! He still asks me to hang out with him while he shoots hoops. He still wants me to watch his skating shows. ( Big and Rob and if any of you haven't discovered that show yet your missing out!) and best of all he still askes me to tuck him in every night. And by god no matter how tired I am I am going to tuck that boy in until he stops asking. It's the best! He wants me to sit with him and he tells me all about his day and what is going on in his life. It's our only time together alone and It means more to me than I can express.

I am so incredibly proud of the person he is. Everyone who knows Logan loves him. Countless adults and friends go out of their way to share with us what a great kid he is. He is always smiling, always polite, is sweet to little kids and helps everyone he can( even his little sister but only for me) He is fun and funny and I love being around him. He is growing to be a great person and someday soon a great man.

It is true what they say about how a mother feels about her sons. It is simply like nothing else. I adore him.

She Loves me!

This Is what I woke to this morning. Actually... back up... I woke to the sound of ARDEN's alarm clock blaring from the other room. This is a first and although I knew something must be going on (first because she never sets her clock and second because she wasn't screaming for me to come turn it off) but to tell you the truth I was so tired and grumpy that I couldn't make myself open my eyes or even roll over much less get up. So I laid there hoping that it was all just a dream. Then I hear her little feet running all over the house. She's in the bathroom... she let's the dog out... noises in the kitchen... the dryer is running... and then the light in our bedroom flashes on and she comes walking in with this.

She's made me breakfast and she is SMILING! and she is speaking sweet words to me , and she is wishing me a happy Valentines day. She has warmed up my bathrobe in the dryer , and she has even ordered personalized M&M's for Paul and me. (she's been planning this all along)

This all comes after a long week of temper tantrums and hormonal swings and homework issues .( and I'm speaking of BOTH of us) We went to bed last night after a failed attempt of trying to make heart shaped cookies on a stick for her class , not completing her homework (first time EVER!)and the house a complete disaster !

What a difference a night makes! What a lucky woman I am! What a sweet girl I have!