TIME

Life is finally getting back to "manageable"
I went to sleep last night with a smile on my face and was very conscience of the fact that that hasn't happen in a long while. The stress of this last year has been exhausting.
Most of you know by now that Mamaisms is no more. You know the saying " too much of a good thing is still just too much" ? Well that has been my life this last year. It was all good, just too much. It seem silly to even complain about it when there are so many people struggling with far greater issues, but it has been hard.

I read a book once about "how to have it all". I got it when my kids were young and my life felt completely out of control . I thought it might help me get organized. HA! I did get a few good organizational tips , but mostly it made me so much busier and therefore more neurotic and in the end just plain NUTS trying to do it all.
I know now you CAN'T have it all. You can't have too much that you are unable to devote the right amount of time to do any one thing well. Does that makes sense?
If I'm running around trying to have a perfect life I end up missing ... well... LIFE!
And right now the one thing I want to do well now is parent my kids the best that I can while I still can. Time with them is slipping away and while I completely believed in the Mamaism theory, the Mamaism company was making me a not so good Mom!

This past year I've miss so much of life. All the things that make me happy. Time with my husband and kids, reading, gardening, volunteering, cooking, laughing, exercising, painting, friendships,journals, sleeping ( I haven't slept in a year!) and just plain "Being". When was the last time you just sat and did nothing?... It's one of my favorite things to do ( Arden caught me doing it last night before bed and thought I was crazy ) it doesn't take long, just a few minutes once in a while and it's so refreshing! Try it! Teach it to your kids! and maybe even your husbands! :)

Mamaisms has taught me so many things.
I know I am competent enough to do anything I put my mind to.
I learned a lot about computers and business.
It showed me that the world is still open to positive messages.
It's taught me who my true friends are (thank you all for your amazing support!)
and brought me some great new friends.

But mostly it has reminded me of what I've always known. That NOBODY loves and supports me more than my husband and nothing is more important to me than Paul, Logan and Arden and the kind of life that we have built together. A life that we actually make the time to enjoy each other.

This year has also brought many sad reminders that time runs out for us all. Lives end, people move away, kids grow up and leave their mamas! And so I leave you with one last "mamaism" "Be Happy with What You Have"
I know I am!