So now what?
What does a career mama do when her kids are "grown"?
At 21 and 19 they don't need me anymore.  I am grateful they still want me.... but I am not really needed anymore. Nor should I be , if I have done my job right.

 So ...Let's  just say I am retired.

But now What???

The thing is...

For me it's not " NOW what do I do"?

For me.... it's "now what do I do FIRST"?

I have so many things I want to do, try, express, share and learn.  And so many places I want to go.

 So many ideas crammed in my head. My problem is what to do first. How to organize and finally follow through with all those ideas.

Well,  I'm hoping this blog will be a good place to start.

So, should I change the name? Plain Jane mama? Does that fit anymore? I am not actively parenting anymore.

The more I thought about it , I really felt like I will always be mama.  It's who I am, who I was meant to be.   Not just to my kids because I do have a tendency to mama wherever I go. And most of my creative ideas and thoughts and plans are linked to what I've learned from full time parenting.
So for now I will remain plain Jane Mama. Your average plain and simple Mama,  sharing what she has learned and what she continues to learn , and .......

 how she goes about becoming Jane again too.

 8…years…later…

Whaaaaaaaaat????????

Time really does pass so quickly…….    when looking back.

When you are in the thick of it… you don't see it slipping away so much. You have moments of awareness, of heart grabbing clarity that snaps you out of the day to day stuff and yells in your ear to "PAY ATTENTION! THIS WONT BE HERE FOR LONG! And "you REALLY are going to miss this!"

 I started writing this blog for many reasons.
One~ as a daily practice of awareness. A time for me to remind myself just how good I have it. Two~ to document all those sweet AND  sour moments that you think at the time you'll never forget ... but you do.  And
Three~ to maybe inspire others and reassure them that we all have our so called
'Issues".

Clearly I am no writer. I am no expert on anything. My education and vocabulary is limited and you will find many grammatical and spelling errors throughout even despite spellcheck.

What I do have is thought. And heart. A lot of it! It keeps me up at night and harasses me all through my days.
I have journaled my whole adult life, and that helps. But lately I feel a need to be heard. And to also hear more from other thoughtful, heartfelt minds. I follow a few inspirational blogs but would like to find more.

To be completely honest, being too busy was not the only reason I stopped writing in this blog.

Honestly , mostly it felt very vain to me. Who authorized me to write a blog???
No one deemed me worthy of speaking my mind and sharing my life. I am not -that -important. A nobody, really.

But there are a whole lot of "nobodies " out there that have thoughts and opinions worth hearing. And Now...8 years later, and approaching 50, this "nobody" has learned... it doesn't matter what people think of me. And  It has nothing to do with vanity.  It's simply about sharing who I am, what I've learned, and my plans and dreams for the future.
 And I have a whole lot of them!😘